You Were A Mistake.

I can't believe I trusted you. All those questions you asked that I thoughtlessly answered, thinking it was just your own interest, that are now being spread throughout the school. I was completely blinded by the lies that you told me. No matter what you say now, I will never forgive you for this. My friends were right not to trust you. My own stupid errors caused this on me. I trusted you with everything I had. It takes so much for me to even tell somebody a simple secret, and you made it to have me completely trust you. You broke that. I don't care if you think you're still my friend, this is it. I won't stand for you in my life any longer. Don't approach me in school ever. I wont say anything to you. I wont even look at you. I wouldn't SPIT in your direction. You disgust me. I hope you have a long happy life without me in it, because I know I'll have the same for you.

Sasha

A Dead End, Or A New Path.

Nowhere else to run. Reality has been chasing me down for quite a while now, and has finally caught up with me. What it has been calling out and seemed so distant is finally in my face and rearing it's ugly, yet quite simple, words. It being: "He'll never be there", "You're dreams are too difficult to reach", And of course "It's all over". Pleasant, right?
I feel as if there is a brick wall in front of me, stopping my endless journey to find reason and ways. Maybe this is what is supposed to happen. Are my motives too far fetched for anyone of my own standards? The key of all is hard work. A line that I will always hope to work is:
"Any dream is possible. But that's only half of the way through. The other half is your own determination and effort to make that dream a reality."
I live by this phrase as if it were all i have anymore. People come and people leave, but future is what makes everything different. This person will have to wait if i want these dreams to become more than my own fantasies. Love is nothing for me anymore. I will continue on and work as hard as possible. Creating this will be difficult, but no one ever said it wouldn't be.


WiSh Me LuCk,,

Sasha

Decisions

I feel torn in half. It seems as though my heart has come to a fork in the road in which I'm not sure of a way to turn any longer. Should I take the long and rickety road by staying with all of this drama, or should I remove myself from this person and lose people I have learned to call my friends? It only take a grain of sand to wreck an entire castle, and years to repair it. But the irony of this is, it may take the same material to rebuild what was destroyed because of your own doings. The real question is; Will what I do be survivable for my kingdom, or will it crumble into the oceans like everything life may send to me in future conflicts? At this moment, I don't care which it may be. I have enough friends to fill in where that person left a gap of self-shame for myself. Will they stay in my life, I am not sure of yet. I am leaving it for them to decide and give them the rings to the lion's cage. At least, far a little while, that is. But if in the end we leave to other ends of the split road, I will not look back for anything. For I have given enough, and I shall hold no regrets and will hold no grudges. Life has me thinking: This trouble isn't worth it any longer.


TeArInG aT tHe SeAmS,,,

Sasha

Love.... Hahaha

This, this love as some people may call it, is ripping me apart by the seams. I now know that waiting around, wondering and picking at every small word that he said is what is truly hurting me. It sickens me that I have reached the such a low level of emotion that I once thought I would never fall for. Perhaps I'm just a victim to this, but I shall no longer linger on a past love. It has gone on for far too long and my emotions are no longer stable enough to keep this act moving. Maybe, perhaps, if i had more time to spare for love, but I have none to give to anyone. If he would like to be in my life once again, then I'll leave that choice up to him, but from now I shall work on my future and how I will work on what i want it to be. If he doesn't, then his problem is no longer my command. What shall my life be like without love? It seems as a journey all in it's own that I am not ready to explore. Single seems far more entertaining to someone like myself.

So LoNg AnD fArEwElL,,,

Sasha生命

I Am The Waiting

Have you ever waited something for no reason? No matter if it would come true or not? I know he will never be, but I will continue to dream and hope that one day, he will be there. And I will stay here, waiting. Will he ever show I do not know. All that I am sure of is that i am grateful to be his friend, and help in any way that I can. It may sound stupid, and I could be wasting my time, but at least I am wasting it on him ♥

ReCkLeSsLy In LoVe,,

Sasha助け

History And It's Repetition.

Before I go on about what my future will(as my intent) will be, I should fill you in about the past. You see, most of the time kids at my age would be whining about drama. Where I live, I'm the person who tries to mend the empty spaces where brutal kids left their mark. But lately, it hasn't been as bad as it has for the past year. Kids fight, true, but not as much in my area of friends. Ever since a certain person left this group he claims he lead, it has been far more quiet, This boy is one of my friends and i would never blame him for any of this, but i do thank him for leaving to another group. It was starting to scare me how much my "little group" as people may call it, would bitch with this boy over such unintelligent things like who he dated, broke up with, and who's lives he ripped to shreds. I am neutral about who my friends hate and who this boy hates, but sometimes it just annoys me how much they hate him for nothing I can even think of. Maybe it's the boys fault, maybe it's the group's fault, but i thank him now.

HaVe A gReAt WeEk,,



Sasha友人

Hello World (Of The Internet):]

Hello people of the internet. My name is Sasha, and this is my page. About my Hopes, my Dreams, and my Everything<3
This blog is to express what I wish for the future, and how I'll be able to figure my life out and work hard enough to make my dreams reality:)
HoPe YoU EnJoY,
Sasha愛